// Oh, Woe is me.//

Oh Hay! I’m posting again. (About damn time…) I know its been a while since I posted. Well a lot is going on that was rather important. Um. Some one close to me died. Yes really sad and all. I did my crying. And I’m ready to move on with my life. This sorta thing happens. I just have to keep my chin up and look to the future. Which leads us into our topic of the week(Month?).

You ever spend some time around those people who just seem to complain about how hard it is to be them? Have you ever done that yourself and later experienced those people? Always crying a moaning. Basically pissing on any good time or possible planing to make a better future for the both/all of you? Well if you haven’t guested it by now. This blog is all about the pissing and moaning people of the world. At least most the time.

Now I’m not talking about people who just got shit on and basically have had their lives turned upside down. I’m talking about the people who have had plenty of time to prepare for said shitting, watched the shitting happen, then proceeded to complain about the shitting and DON’T EVER STOP! If its one thing people may have noticed by now, its that Pessimistic people really rub me the wrong way. And I can’t be around them for very long. They just can’t help but talk about how HARD, how DIFFICULT, how STRENUOUS it is to be them. Well you know what? FUCK YOU! I know how hard life can be. I know what BS can completely ruin your plans. My father molested me, I was always sick as a kid worried I would DIE in the middle of the night, couldn’t socialize properly, shat on by the school system, wasted 4 years out of highschool figuring out what I was supposed to do with my life, helped my mom through her drinking problem and even suffered mental abuse from that then when its all said and done. I’m TRANSSEXUAL! But you know what. Other then the trans part, that is all in the past and I’m looking forward.

I could write a shit storm about how hard my life as been with no moral of the story. With the only point being to shock people and have them pity me. I would probable get more popular by posting that kinda of BS to. But the sad song of “Oh, Woe is me.” just isn’t my style. I did too much of that when I was younger, and I have to tell you. I’m better off now that I have out grown it. Life is what we make of it. We are in control of our future. Nothing is predetermined unless we let it be that way.

So on to what I’m saying. Beyond the rage filled paragraphs above, I have a real massage to this. Stop, take a deep breath, and analyse your life. Take a walk if you have to. Clear your head. NO NO! No drugs or alcohol. Those only prolong the problem and make new ones. We want a real clear mind. One with out foreign toxins or other people to cloud your thoughts. Think on your own. Question with your own mind. Don’t let rage, depression, jealousy cloud your judgement. Just let go of all your negative emotions and breath. Smile and take in all that the world as to offer… There. You see? Better right. Just let your thoughts go for a moment. Watch the world with eyes not weighed down by negative emotions or drugs. You may be surprised at what you see.

This world is too lovely to let yourself be controlled by the negativity. We all have bad days. We all have times when we are sad. We all feel like its hopeless some times. We often see conflict as a large crack in a gigantic damn when its only a small leak under the kitchen sink. Just take it slow and rethink the situation. It will become easier if you let it.

People who don’t want to be around pessimistic people or self loathing people is because they know these kinda of people are toxic to them and just wrong about the situation. It may be bad, but as long as you are still living its not hopeless. Its not as these pessimists believe it to be. They seem to think “Oh, they just don’t want to hear the truth about the world.” when in fact its not true at all. We don’t want our thoughts poisoned with the their cannibalistic philosophy.

These people feed on the attention they get. They love to see you cry for them and want you to feel as much for them as they do for themselves. They will use this pity to find others who have had poor lives and feed on them in order to bring them down to their level. Its a poor cycle and one that consumes too many people.

Some of these people can be brought out of it and just need a friend to help them up for a while. And its not usually the friend who is in the same situation, but rather the ones who have gone through something similar and rose above it. Sometimes they don’t even need to be someone who has gone through it. Sometimes it can just be an ear to listen to. Then after all is said and done, bring them into something that involves other people and slowly introduce them into a more social environment. Of course you have to go at a slow pace. You can’t make them feel uncomfortable. That isn’t your goal. You want them to experience a good time and get away from their self loathing, not push them back into it.

By all means, I’m not asking anyone to take on the responsibility of trying to help some one out of their shell. Some times, they just need a little push. Other times, its better to just ignore those people who refuse to get past their self loathing. Seeing as they are not going to support a health relationship. But I think We get the point by now. People should be more optimistic and take life by the horns, blah blah blah. More Puppy and rainbow thinking that people really don’t want to hear because its not “EDGY!”

I’m okay with having only 3 people read my blogs. At least some one likes them. And that makes me happy that I can share my thoughts with at least someone else. Perhaps I’ll get up to 4 people. Wouldn’t that be exciting?

// Hopelessly Optimistic//

For those of you who read my posts(Aka one of three friends of mine who actually decided to follow me and read them) and know me in real life, You know that I am extremely optimistic about 60% of the time(This counts that percent when I’m in a bad mood or talking about finding work. FREAKING JOBS!). I try to see the good in things and look at a problem from a different angle. Though, not a lot of people do this(That I have noticed). Many people are more then happy to complain about a problem then do anything to fix it. This is a real shame. Seeing as if these people put even half the energy they spend in complaining and applied it to fixing the problem the world would be much better off.

Too many people are hopelessly pessimistic. Its the popular thing to do. And I don’t do things that are popular. If I did, I would have some other art for my profile, talk about controversial topics and be telling every one that they are stupid and explain how horrible the human race is. The problem with that though, is it would be a lie on my part. I don’t believe much of that and I have no intention of trampling over some one else’s beliefs. I wish simply to enlighten people and help them expand on their beliefs. Part of this has to do with my own belief that humanity is, for the most part, a positive entity in this universe. We just haven’t quite got there yet.

I’ve seen some of the best and worst of what humanity has to offer. And more often then not I see the best shine through all the grime we like to display. We are still growing as a species. We are still trying to find our place in the universe. We don’t know what our destiny holds for us or what waits us out there. We are still young and don’t fully understand our own impact on this world.

We have great potential. Don’t give up on humanity because of a few rotten apples. This is the main thing I want to express to every one in the world. Humanity isn’t evil. We aren’t some force of destruction. We aren’t a virus. We are Infantile. I know calling us infantile sounds like I’m mocking the progress of humanity. However, despite all our achievements, we really haven’t gotten that far just yet. We are still rather narrow sighted and stuck on a few things that seem important in the moment. Things that we fight tooth and nail to keep the same or change. Things that a alien species or a god would see as trivial. And things we fought over just a few years ago we look at now as something that should have always been in place. So yes! Describing humanity as infantile is the right description. This description isn’t a bad thing though. We are still growing. We are still young.

Eventually, humanity will mature. We will get our heads out of the clouds and away from silly things and learn what it truly means to be sentient. We will eventually understand our place and appreciate the universe around us and the people we share a planet with. I am Optimistic because I know we wont stop asking questions. We wont stop feeling for each other. We wont stop because we want to be perfect. Our seemingly hopeless dreams is what makes me smile for our future.

I Know we will become greater then ourselves because that is what we want. Its the goal we never stop trying to achieve. So I will continue to be An optimist. Despite all you naysayers.

// Mindbrain//

Okay, its 4 in the morning. I’m extremely bored, have nothing to do, sleep is not an option(Not because I can’t sleep but because my mind is racing.). So I will explain myself a bit.

You see, my skull is filled with ideas, thoughts, philosophy, double negatives, puppies, rainbows, nightmares, dreams, aspirations, music, art, insanity, squishy brains and so much more. So I wish to share my mindgasms all over you good folk on tumblr… No that isn’t sexual… I think.. Either way, I would hope you all enjoy my posts and find some joy or truth in them. Weather its from my funny post about nothing, to my meaningful post about transgender issues and human rights. My goal is to get you to think or smile. All I wish to do is share what is important to me.

The meaning of the title on my page is just this. I feel as though I am a Logic person stuck in a illogical world. I some times feel as though I am a human who has wondered into the loony toon world. Nothing makes sense to me and I can point this out to the toons and give them ways to better complete their goal with less pain to them. But all this seems to do is make them upset and they just go back to hitting each other with hammers. Thus I feel the madness creeping around me from this overwhelming world. Since this world is illogical and often the best solution any one can come up with seems to usually be sticking your head into the sand while a flood is happening in your town, I chose the nonsensical title of “Lily’s mindbrain of things and happenings”.

Oh, don’t think I’m pessimistic about humanity either. I have higher hopes for us the most people do. I believe we can do amazing things, and we will eventually develop to a point beyond bigotry and violence. I would even go so far to say that humanity will eventually get past sexism, racism, homophobia, greed and anything else that only seems to hurt people. I believe that people are over all good. Most people just don’t understand just how to help others and may have been trained otherwise.

And I know that “good” is a touchy subject. Good and evil will be a a topic that I will post later.

Have a lovely day. I look forward to posting more in the future.